A Beautiful Lie.

I smile, I laugh
But, there's a hidden past,
Deep down within,
A scar so deep,
But, I smile to please.

It's a beautiful lie I live, 
two worlds, two personalities, 
one fake and another real, but hard to explain.
"I'm tired" I say, when people ask me what's wrong? 
But, can they tell?
They wouldn't understand. It's complicated. 
I tell myself.
But, to be honest, I'm just scared, 
to put my guards down and to be let down.

People think I'm all sunshine and rainbows,
But, they don't know, it's an act put up well.
Although I'm surrounded with people, I feel alone,
Dark and gloomy clouds surrounding me,
In search of a ray of hope,
I move ahead.
It's a beautiful lie I live, 
two worlds, two personalities, 
one fake and another real, but hard to explain.